Not all treasure is silver and cold - Chapter 33

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Previous Chapters:
Chapter 1 - Pirates!
Chapter 2 - Its all true
Chapter 3 - Yes Captain
Chapter 4 - Never trust a pirate
Chapter 5 - Waking up in hell
Chapter 6 - Not that innocent
Chapter 7 - Right Decision, Wrong Choice
Chapter 8 - Damn him!
Chapter 9 - Missed a spot
Chapter 10 - C'est une belle histoire
Chapter 11 -Kisses and Dramaqueens
Chapter 12 - Damaged
Chapter 13 - Liar
Chapter 14 - Saved to kill you
Chapter 15 - When I need you most
Chapter 16 - No black no white
Chapter 17 - All Better
Chapter 18 - Last night was a lie
Chapter 19 - Todat would be hell
Chapter 20 - It was you
Chapter 21 -You were me
Chapter 22 - Just like me
Chapter 23 - God no...Please no...
Chapter 24 - Together
Chapter 25 - Free
Chapter 26 - Take me home
Chapter 27 - Dream
Chapter 28 - Bedrest
Chapter 29 - Another Option
Chapter 30 - Its in the rain
Chapter 31 - Thank You
Chapter 32 - Won't you miss me?

Chapter 33 - It just happened

“…..it just happened Bam.”

Dani sighed once more, as he sat next to me on the front of the deck. The wind playing joyfully with my hair as the sun had returned fully now to lighten the world with pale morning rays.

The only eventual proof of the storm last night was the dampness of the wood, the small pools of water gathered here and there on the deck, and the shifted roped and barrels around us. Other then this, all was well again.

My legs were dangling from the high barrel I was sitting on, as I eyed Dani by my side. Scribbling down words on a large piece of yellow parchment with a beautiful black quill as he avoided my gaze.

“Yeah, but how exactly?”

I tried again, finally making Dani look up from his work as he faced me.

I had been fishing for answers to my question for over thirty minutes now, and we were both getting less subtle by the minute.

Yes, I had started out vaguely, and careful not to betray my intentions, until both Dani and me had completely lost our patients with my obviously confusing method.

Causing me to throw all my secrecy out the window, and ask exactly what it was I wanted to know.

Dani was just like me. Almost anyways, and he was still here.

He knew how to get it done. He knew what had changed things for him. And how they could change for me.

“Like I said Bam, I don’t know. It just kinda got like this.”

Dani kept his answers as vague and unhelpful as I rolled my eyes in frustration. I knew I was amusing, as well as annoying him. But I did not care anymore. He just had to tell me.

What was it that I could not know?

“Did you ask him if you could stay?”

I tried again, hoping Dani would not keep his answers this useless and unclear, as he wiped a spider leg dread of hair out of his face.

“Well…..no.”

“Dani?”

I whined now, more desperate as he finally looked me in the eyes.

Almost smiling at my attitude, but something darker shining behind his sea blue eyes.

Oh, why couldn’t he just tell me? What was there to be so secretive about?

“Bam…..”

Dani hesitated for a moment before taking a deep breath. Looking into my pleading eyes with a frown.

“He….He asked me to stay. There. That’s it.”

He quickly looked away, as he spoke in a soft voice. Trying to avoid me again as he looked back at the parchment on his lap. Making the tip of the quill dance graceful letters over the yellow as he did.

Knowing what his words did to me, as I felt a pang of hurt spreading trough my being.

So this was why he had been so secretive. Dani had gotten what I wished I would get….but never would. He had been asked by my Captain.

He had.

Unlike me, he had been asked. He had been wanted by him.

And Dani, he had known exactly how this made me feel, because he knew the truth. He knew I would not be asked. He knew I was not as wanted.

I shifted my eyes back to my hands as I felt my shoulders slouch forward. Wondering and wondering why.

After everything he had said to me. This morning.

After all we had shared.

Had Dani just been a little more…..special, maybe?

“Oh.”

I betrayed my hurt as I felt a strong hand coming to rest on my shoulder.

“Look Bam...”Dani shook my body a little in his own frustration, as he really seemed very uncomfortable discussing the matter with me. Knowing just as well as I did that there were no answers that would sooth me.

“It is just that......I can write. That’s rare and very convenient on a ship. I was helpful, and I rather enjoyed being here. So I did not refuse when he asked me if I wanted to stay. It had become my home after those months, and I had changed, or perhaps lost my…my morals. I had made friends with the crew by then. And the Captain of course.”

I bit my lip as I took in Dani’s words. Looking out over the stretched water we were sliding towards, as I kicked the back of my heels against the wood of the barrel.

“I think....I think we have become more than that.”

I spoke quietly after a little silence, as I spoke the words in order to defend myself. Or perhaps to hear Dani confirm it.

“Than what?”

“Than friends.”

Now it was Dani part to chew on his lip and stare out over the ocean and blue grey as his eyes. Forgetting the quill in his hand, and the parchment on his lap.

“Perhaps. That might be why this is so much more complicated. I have told you about his past Bam. It doesn’t help the matter whatsoever. I was not a threat like you are.”

He spoke the words carefully, as though he thought they might set me off into a rage. But all I could do was frown as he kept his eyes on the horizon.

Gripping my upper legs with my hands as I balanced on the barrel.

“What do you mean?”

I questioned him further. Sickly pleased to at least not have him deny my words about the Captain and I, yet still unsatisfied.

“It is just....it makes the subject a lot more sensitive Bam. I am sure you understand.”

Again I frowned as Dani tried to return to his work. Obviously trying to show me the conversation was over. But it could not be, as it had my mind racing with all these new discoveries. I needed to know more, and figure out how I could truly reach him.

“So....he is afraid.”

I stated. Trying not to get into it any deeper than Dani, and keep him in a comfortable zone as I fished for my answers.

“In a way. Look I won’t say much more about this matter Bam. I know he cares about you, and it is true that I have not seen him like this before. But lets not jump to any conclusions here.”

He warned me with a stern voice as I sat up straighter. Making Dani growl under his breath as he saw the wheels in my head spinning.

“Do you think he...?”

I did not finish my sentence, knowing I had done the exact opposite of what he had just asked me to do, when he slammed his work down next to him and placed both his hands over his eyes in a dramatic gesture with a disturbed groan.

“I don’t think or know any of this Bam. Please do not ask me.”

He almost pleaded now as he raised his voice. Still refusing to look at me as he kept his eyes covered with both hands and letting out a tired moan.

“Bam, believe me when I say I would love it for you, and me and even all of us if you could stay. But I can’t help you with that. This isn’t my....game so to speak. And I know better than to get involved.”

He removed his hands now, as he looked into my widened eyes. His expression softening as I chewed on the inside of my cheek. Why did all of this had to be so hard? Why couldn’t he just tell me what to do?

“You still got some time left. I suggest you wait it out. Anything could happen.”

He offered me a slight smile as his hand petted my back in a manly way before picking up his work once more.

If only that had been enough.

“But why don’t.....why can’t I just tell him? Just say I want to stay here instead of going back and....?”

My hopeful words died as Dani started shaking his head frequently, and I felt another pang filling my guts with doubt.

It just hurt so much to know the hope for me staying with my...my Captain....my only true love....was almost foolish.

“That, my friend, I strongly advice you not to do. Believe me when I say the Captain does not like surprises that much. He needs to be in control. Do not ask, just wait it out. As I said....anything could happen.”

I slowly nodded as I tried to swallow down the nagging feeling of despair in my throat. Trying to keep Dani’s words in mind.

I still had time. Anything could happen. Anything.

“Thanks Dani.”

I spoke quietly as he nudge me a little with his elbow. Causing me to smile slightly at his attempt to cheer me up.

“Don’t mention it kiddo. Now come here and sit a bit closer so you can help me out with these reports.”


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