Not all treasure is silver and gold - Chapter 6

Chapter 6 – Not that innocent

I knew I had no choice.

He wasn't leaving me any option. He always got what he wanted.

And he wanted me to sit on his lap like a drunken prostitute on a sailor’s. Like one of the women trying to seduce rich men in taverns. The ones mother had warned me about.

All I could do was obey him, as he was holding my destiny in his bare hands. Saying no to this, something so impure and unheard of, would undoubtedly cost me my life.

It was so degrading and humiliating to have this asked of me, my cheeks burned with shame, and my jaw clenched to fight back the fresh tears. I'd never been a crier since father always had forbid it, but now…with him looking at me with those deep, light and greedy eyes, I couldn't help but feel five years old again and far away from home.

He beckoned me with that wicked smile plastered on his face, and that ominous glint in his eyes. His raven hair and creamy white skin shining and glowing mysteriously in the light of the candles. The one standing in front of him making the flame dance in his eyes and making him look more and more like the devil himself.

The others kept laughing. Shouting and pointing out how frightened I looked. Feeding off my misery, the sound of it echoing in my head like the sound of a thousand screaming seagulls. It all made me feel so unclean.

The captain simply stared at me, stroking the silk on his legs as a form of welcoming me to sit on him. It was before he lifted both his arms to reach out for me, stretching his hands in order for me to come to him and let him touch me.

I wanted to stay put. To not give him the pleasure of me coming to him without putting up a fight for my own dignity. I wouldn't go to him like his little lap dog. I was the son of the governor for crying out loud.

I would only do something this disgraceful, if they forced me with violence. I would not give up this easily. I needed to stay here….not move…not…

But my little plan failed when I couldn't control my feet, suddenly moving ever so slowly towards him without me giving them permission to do so. The moment he reached for me and lifted his arms, the slit on both sides of his shirt fell open to expose the silky pale skin on the sides of his body. The curves of his waist and the outlines of his ribs. The sharp hipbones of his round hips that disappeared into his silk breeches.

It was enthralling, and not the way that a man was supposed to look, or be shaped. So much like a mystical creature. Like a demon that chose to appear in pure perfection. My trembling body simply moved on it's own. In some twisted, idiotic way I was drawn to him and his devilish beauty, and he knew it. It was undoubtedly the effect he had on any human being.

I hated him so. For that alone I hated him. I was so frightened I couldn't even feel my hunger anymore. I couldn’t feel anything other but that fear. It was when he spoke to me again that my feet stopped moving, and I remembered my plan of saving a little of my own face. I managed to scare even myself in this situation, where my own reaction was just as unpredictable as his.

"Come on now little Bam. Today would be great. Chop chop."

He sounded mildly amused, and slightly annoyed with me. His light-hearted and immature way of speaking being so in contrast with his appearance.

He sighed when he noticed me stopping, and I knew I was getting on his nerves. He was obviously used to getting his way, always. If I pushed too far I would surely be punished, I knew.

It was when his eyes flickered to Archie, who was sitting close to where I was standing, that I felt a couple of strong hand shoving me roughly forwards and forcing me to move my feet to keep myself from falling.

I yelled as I felt the unexpected push, almost making me tumble down and onto the wooden floor. But I grabbed the arm of Jussi’s chair just in time to keep myself up, my bare feet stepping closer towards the captain as the others roared and stretched their necks to get a better look.

I didn’t dare look up when I saw my toes almost touching the nose of his boots, knowing how close that stumble he brought me to him as I heard him chuckle in satisfaction.

My lips trembled and my fingers shook as I held my hands entwined before my lap. I felt like a naughty schoolboy in front of the principle. I'd never been that boy. I had been home schooled.

"Bam?" He addressed me, almost concern in his voice and I heard him sitting up straighter. I made the mistake of looking up into his green orbs again. So full of life. Windows so open I could almost feel the draft coming from them. And it wasn’t just him, all of them had it.

It seemed that only pirates had nothing to hide about themselves. Not their love, not their cruelty. Things that were all hidden by the society of the rich, so no emotions or flaws would be known. It was safe.

This was not.

"Don’t ye worry sweetheart. It will be alright."

He assured me with a sweet smile playing around his plump cherry kissed lips, and before I could even consider the inappropriate term of endearment, I felt his big, delicate but strong hands grabbing my waist to turn me around in one swift movement, just before his arms encircled me completely and pulled me up and onto his silk upper legs.

As my bottom touched the line between his legs and abdomen, I knew he'd done it. It a matter of seconds, he had simply pulled me upon him and in his lap. And I hadn’t done a thing to stop him.

**

In felt myself panic as the heat of his body seeped through his and my clothes into my skin. Making the back of my legs tingle from the contact as I arched my back to not have to touch his chest my back was nearly leaning against.

His legs were slightly spread, forcing mine to do the same as my knees bent over both sides of his long, slim upper legs.

His hands folded over my stomach to keep me in place, but only loosely without forcing me further back and closer against his body.

"Aye, there we go." I heard the captain say from behind me as one of his hands left my stomach to take the tri-corner hat off my curls and lay it in front of me on the table.

"Finally."

"Best seat on the ship mate."

"Look at his face."

"Cheers to that."

All men raised their tankards to bang them together with a cheer. I searched for Dani’s eyes from my spot on the captain in my moment of panic, as he was the only one of them I had had slightly normal contact with. But Dani simply gulped down his beer and smiled warmly at me, as if nothing was wrong. As if thinking I was actually having a good time in my position. As if I had nothing to worry about.

Bazie gave them all something new to focus on when he spilled some beer over Timo, who yelped and threw some of his beer right back at his friend. I hoped the captain would also be distracted by the scene as more guys started to throw their beer and Jyrki now dripped some candle grease down Jussi’s hand to make him cry out, and leave me sitting here without paying attention to my trembling body.

It was when I felt his body twisting underneath and behind me that I knew his attention was still fully on me. I felt an electric jolt running through every cell of my being when his hands suddenly moved from my waist to my upper arms.

"Bammie, you're shivering boy." He stated with a whisper in my ear. His hot breath tickled the sensitive skin of my ear shell, as he rubbed my arms with both his hands. Almost as if thinking my shivers were caused by coldness.

The lack of support around my waist made me slip on the slippery silk I was sitting on, and I was forced to push back my body against his, to keep myself from sliding off his legs.

I wriggled my lower body to keep myself on his lap and grabbed the inside of both his knees in panic to balance myself upon him, not wanting to fall down and be laughed at again.

His hands removed themselves from my arms when I did that, leaving me clinging to his upper legs with my hips and backside pushed flushed against him. Every now and then moving my hips to reposition myself. All to keep myself from falling.

It was when I felt something pushing back against my behind that I realized what affect I had on him with my body rubbing against his so innocently. The shock made me withdraw my hands instantly from his knees and it almost made me tumble off his legs. But his hands grabbed hold of my hips in an instant as he kept me from falling down, pushing me closer against the large and growing hardness in his breeches. Making me gasp as I realized exactly what that meant.

Remembering the feeling of having that stiffness inside my own pants and the sensation that burned in the pit of my stomach when something rubbed close against it. Knowing how such feelings and temptations were forbidden by the church before marriage.

His hot breath brushed against my ear in ragged pants as I realized how aroused he'd gotten by my movements. I felt my entire body flush as a shiver ran down my spine. This moment could not have gone more wrong. I had done exactly what I had wanted to prevent.

"Keep that up, and I might do something I’ll regret Bam."

His deep voice warned me shakily, with a heated groan from behind me, the vibration tickling the soft skin behind my ear. I knew he wasn’t kidding when he pulled me close against his hardness once more before pushing me slightly from him to distance me from his groin. A little more forward, but still pressed against it.

The burning fear of being violated by the man that had looked at me like I was completely bare to his eyes grew only stronger. My heart was beating so loudly I knew the entire room could hear it.

I knew now he desired me. He actually desired me sexually. Like a man desired a woman.

But a man could not lay with another man. The bible said so, and the same thing had been told to me by the priest. This alone was a sin. This alone I needed to confess to the priest. I tempted another man into lusting after my body.

I could cry, but his hands distracted me. Now no longer on my waist, and no longer on my hips, but firmly placed on my upper legs to keep me steady. Seeming much more innocent to him and the others maybe, but making the heat from his hands seep into my tights and making them tingle.

"Well well, look who kissed and made up. What a pretty picture eyy."

I heard Jussi comment from next to me as the other men were all distracted with each other and their alcohol.

The captain giggled in my ear at the comment but instantly stopped as Jussi leaned over to rub the inside of my thigh, making me cringe at the unexpected and not so gentle touch.

"Back off Jussi. He's scared as it is. No need to rub your filthy hands all over him." He growled like an animal protecting his young, and Jussi withdrew his hand instantly, but with a smile still in place. I knew he'd been joking. The captain on the other hand, was probably not.

"Sorry Cap’n, the boy does look a little tense. Maybe he needs some grog to make him feel more comfortable."

He spoke, holding up a bottle with some sort of brown alcoholic substance inside of it as the captain reached for it and took it from him.

"Yes, That's not such a bad idea Jus. It might helps him sleep better tonight."

He spoke to his friend, who glowed when the captain agreed with him, before turning to Dani to ask for another bottle for himself. Captain Valo handed me the bottle from behind me as his soft hair graced my cheek for a moment.

"Have a sip Bam. But be careful. It might burn your throat a bit."

He warned me as I took the bottle. I never drank anything other than small sips of wine father had given me. This was rum. This was so much stronger. This was not allowed.

But he uncorked it for me. He handed it to me. I couldn't do anything but do what he asked me to. His appearance, his power over me together with the new knowledge that he wanted me, made me feel cornered. Exposed and handed to the person that could and would hurt me.

So I tried not to smell the strong smell raising from the open bottle, and raised it slowly to my lips as I tilted it slightly.

I tried not to jump when the liquid touched my tongue. The taste was so extreme and disgusting I quickly swallowed it. That was a mistake as I was surprised again when it burned my throat so heavily I thought I was going to choke.

I was embarrassed when I started to cough, but only to have the captain gently rub my back before taking the bottle of me and placing it next to my hat on the table.

"There there, I warned you Bam. You took a too big sip. That’s not good when you’re not used to it."

He simply calmed me, and I was happy none of the others had noticed me making a fool out of myself. The captain himself did not seem amused nor surprised by my reaction. He just seemed overly content with me on his lap, trapped against his proud erection. It didn't seem to bother him one bit that he was so openly showing me the effect my backside against his groin had on him.

He was drunk, I could tell, just like the others. But unlike most of them, he did not seem exuberant. Maybe expect for Dani and Migé who both seemed to be nodding off very slowly. He just purred softly against my neck as he put down the bottle before sitting back up again, and hugging me to his body. His hands on my upper legs, raising oh so slowly to my thighs, with his head leaning against mine.

I could not see what he was doing, but I knew he was calm and content. I knew he was completely focused on me. And I knew he was slipping in a rosy, peaceful and perhaps sleepy state. I don’t know whether that was a good or a bad thing for me since he now seemed less aggressive, but more affectionate with me. I didn't fear for him to hurt me, but I did fear for his wondering hands to take my innocence. That would be worse than him taking my life.

That would make me burn in the deepest pit of hell.

But the rum, the smell of the alcohol and smoke, the gentle candlelight and the heat in the room made it hard for me to stay on my toes. I had to force myself not to relax against the warm body behind me and stay alert.

Sweat was sliding down my back as I felt him nuzzling my curls as he slowly started to kneed the flesh of my thighs gently. Sending a tingling sensations upwards to somewhere deep within me.

"Such soft hair you have Bam. I’m going to tie it back with a silk ribbon tomorrow to keep it out of those beautiful eyes of yours. They remind me of the sea, ye know."

He cooed in my ear, running the tip of his nose very softly over the shell of my ear as his hands ran a little higher up my legs and making the same caressing movement.

All of it seemed to be done absently by him. I doubted he knew he was doing it to me as he kept rambling some other soft and sweet words into my ear before simply nuzzling my neck and hair.

Affection I could not resist myself against, as the temperature of my body seem to rise. I was sweating, I was shivering and my head was slightly spinning.

His fingertips pressed into my upper thighs now, rubbing the fabric of my breeches against the sensitive flesh. 

**

"Captain?"

He had no clue that he was having this effect on me as he suddenly calmly replied to Migé who asked him some technical question about something that I didn't understand.

I couldn't even listen to the conversation as his fingertips send hot sparks of fire straight into my core as my body started to tingle. Even my toes and fingertips filled itself with the sensation.

I realized this feeling I was experiencing was….lust. A feeling I'd never felt before. At least not like this. I only knew this because it was a feeling discussed at Sunday school, and that this was Satan tempting me to do something against God.

All I had to do was be strong and force the feeling away, I thought to myself as he kept running his finger tips higher and higher while laughing about something Migé had said to him.

But the feeling wouldn’t go. It didn’t work as well as I hoped as my body could only focus on those fingers touching and kneading my sensitive skin.

If he would just stop. If he would just……

My eyelids started to flutter from the caressing and I had to fight the urge to roll my eyes back, and lay my head against his shoulder.

Dear lord, I couldn't help it. It felt so good. I couldn’t fight it.

It was the moment I was ready to give up….the moment I was willing to give in and surrender to this sinful bliss. The pleasure that was making me blind and loose the control over my own body. There was a storm going on inside of my body and I was trapped in it. I couldn't fight this. I couldn't do anything.

But the moment I knew I was too weak to resist, chairs were shoved back in the wood and most of the crew raised from them to walk out with a goodnight. The were going to bed.

The decision to turn in and call it a night had gone by me, but the hands suddenly stopped their movement, and the captain laid down his head to rest it on my shoulder as the feeling in my belly slowly sank back into nothing. Bringing me back into reality,

"Let’s go to bed Bam."

He gently announced, making a shiver run through me as he planted his soft lips against the tender flesh behind my ear in the form of a kiss, before lifting me off of him and putting me on my wobbling legs.

The world was spinning. I wanted to blame the rum, but I couldn’t since I only had had so little. I wanted to blame the fear….That I could do.

I was feeling empty, tired, hungry and most of all scared by what had just happened. I had almost wanted something so very sinful and wrong to happen to me. One day with this man made me loose control like this.

From now on I was not going to let it come to this point again, I vowed.

I was not going to be seduced into doing something against the church.

The fear for him and his crew members came back full force as I realize how hard that was going to be.

"Follow me."

And now he wanted me to follow him to his bedroom. He wanted us to go to bed.

For some reason, that didn’t sound as innocent as it should have.





Ok I know...Cliffhanger....slow as fuck....I Am SO Sorry!! *sobs* Please forgive me!! I had such a slow day when I wrote this!!!!WHEE!!I still hope you like it and please share me the thoughts that come up in the complexicty that is your brain! Im dying to hear that I did another cliffhanger and that you hate me for it LOL!! No seriously I do!
Thanks all so much for the support because I never felt so loved before, and also for joining my pirate crew!!! You havent? Why not?? Do It!!
Rum, virgin rum and cupcakes for all!! Love and kissies!!

OH! I will nor reply this Friday/Saterday/Sunday because I am going to a festival in Belgium to see a kinds of cool bands! And Ozzy!! Villes idol! LOL! I will reply as soon as I get back which will be...Monday!!